oh, mama raised me well

running errands today was EXHAUSTING. too many people. people down every aisle we wanted to turn down. people crowding in the aisles. exhausting. i impulse bought a lot of snacks because of it haha. also spotted that starlight coke and grabbed a bottle. it tastes like....something. tony said maybe vaguely fruity? like.....a banana bubblegum? i can't place exactly what it could be. a lot of folks were saying marshmallow, but it's more like it has.....the flavor of the texture of how marshmallow feels in your mouth, if that makes sense? it's fine. i didn't hate it. probably wouldn't buy it again, tbh

i bought tony a bunch of art supplies b/c he needed a new sketchbook and we discovered the michael's carries his favorite brush pens. so we splurged a bit since he's going to be going out to st. louis soon and wants to take some of his art stuff

i got a Big Commission this past weekend that should be fun to work on. kinda annoy with myself that i haven't had the motivation much to draw. tired of the cold ass weather. work feels like it's all i do but i also barely do anything at work tbh (but i also can't spend the day drawing either haha). so it's felt a lot like work -> come home, make dinner -> sleep -> wake up to go to work -> repeat

i do wish i could work like, four tens instead of five eights and have three days off a week instead of the two b/c the two is never enough. especially now that i'm sometimes doing pathfinder on sundays so that's An Obligation. i just want time to come home and do n o t h i n g lol

but the weather also isn't helping at all. can't work on the porch. can't start on seeds. can't bike anywhere. can't just go down to the cemetery and chill out. it's not quite cabin fever b/c i'm not itching to go out and socialize, but i want that warmth and that greenery and THE SUN. absolutely remarkable how much the fuckin sun puts me in a better mood even if i've gotta get up at 8am for work

speaking of socializing, i went over chris and sam's place yesterday after work and i showed them (and andrew and basil lol) how to play carcassonne (and didn't swindle them all out of their cities lol) and we played a game they bought recently, mysterium, which i really enjoyed. that's the other reason i'm exhausted today. i love hanging out, but i need like a full day to decompress lol

tony's supposed to be leaving for st. louis sometime next week? i think he's waiting until after his dr's appt next week sometime. he's staying with a friend of his (who he visited before) since the friend's brother just passed recently. so he's going to help out with house and pet stuff. i am probably going to do some hardcore cleaning/organizing while he's gone lol b/c i can focus on it better and i'll have his office to put stuff as i work through things lol