oh, mama raised me well

november is TRULY the thursday of months. it feels like it's been dragging on way longer than september and october did

we opened at work at 10am - it is only 11:30. it feels like it should be 1pm by now x_x

it also doesn't help that it's sunny out ANDDDDD it's supposed to be 50F today. and after a couple days of freezing temps, that's more than welcome

life stuff has been garbage lately - lost our medicaid b/c i make a whopping $300 over the poverty limit. so now tony's surgery is cancelled and he's without coverage for his doctor's visits and medication and all that shit, which is Not Great. we reapplied and when we get denied again, i'm gonna appeal and see what can be done. the frustrating part is they count your GROSS pay and not your NET pay. i have $200~ taken out for taxes/opers/etc before i get my money, and then i've got the debt thing ($250/every paycheck) over me for another $2500, plus rent/bills/etc. they only look at certain things to consider - sometimes just bills/utilities, which is absolute bullshit

otherwise, my mom recommended getting the start on applying for ssi for him, since he has a variety of documentation and diagnoses now. his doctor's are also seeing if there's any low cost options available so he can continue to see them through all of this. but it still fucks us for his scripts :///

but yeah, shit's exhausting and i wish i could just sink into the cool, dark earth for awhile. hibernate until shit fixes itself or something

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in things that aren't misery and woe, i have a couple little packages to send out for folks in the holiday_wishes community and i got a LOT of great graphic novel reccs on my post! looking forward to reading some of them over the next two months X3

absolutely unrelated to anything else - i really need to go to gabes and buy some new bras

i also finally FINALLY got my credit card (the one that didn't get charged off, at least) under its $500 credit limit. not by much, but it's something. i've been trying my best to put at least $50/mo on it, even tho the interest rn eats about $15-$17, it's whittling it away slowly. i had to let the other one go b/c i wasn't gonna be able to pay it down as well. once i have this debt thing off my back, i can deal with a new, different debt thing! hurrah!! 🙃