2:19 AM
i went to the mall the next day and just kind of wandered around/therapy shopped and also gave a bunch of info to the funeral director when he called for the death certificate/notice for the paper
it's been weird, i haven't been, like, grief-stricken about things. i think the last month to kind of begin to process things helped immensely. it's going to hit me in ways later when i get mad b/c i can't share something with her, or we can't go do something together, y'know?
i've been home from warren since wednesday this past week, i'm off work at least until next tuesday for bereavement leave, but i think i'm gonna take another week just b/c there's been house stuff happening (i think our furnace may be getting replaced??) and it'd be nice to do some tidying/reorganizing before i sort out emmie's arrival. i've also STILL been sick. it's been mainly congestion in my sinuses and coughing, but it still makes me feel all lethargic and gross.
i still have to write an obituary, i still need to pay the cremation costs, i still need to figure out what's going to happen with the house/car and probate court and all that and it's just A Lot and i wish i could pawn it off on someone else to deal with tbh. it's been exhausting having to field calls/texts/messages from everyone offering condolences and chit-chat, but i know that's also part of the whole thing
idk it's 2:30am and i'm rambling b/c i took a nap earlier and am trying to let tony get some sleep b/c my snoring has been really bad lately and he's a light sleeper, so i'm just word vomiting and listening to driftercat jingle around the house by himself playing with toys