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obliviousally) wrote2023-05-16 12:48 pm
obliviousally) wrote2023-05-16 12:48 pm
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seven new ways that you can eat your young
the hvac is not putting out a/c to the public facing areas at work, so facilities brought down two giant industrial standing fans that sound like sitting in an airfield or something. i cannot tell if i'm getting a lowkey headache from the noise or something else (it's not SUPER loud, but it's loud enough to be a little more prominent than white noise)
feeling blocked mentally and creatively recently. i've been making a bunch of little zine things, but they don't require a ton of thought. been struggling to put pen to paper (so to speak; pencil to ipad) with art - commissions and personal work, but moreso the latter. i've also been wanting to do some writing, but nothing's actually forming. it's frustrating!!
but i've been sticking my zines up in highland square (neighborhood near my house) and it's been fun to see who finds me on social media just from that lol
i folded the ones above zigzag and when you reach the bottom you flip it over to 'keep scrolling'. i thought it was pretty cute lol. they're, like, 3.25"x17", so a decent size unfurled!
i also made a couple zines featuring photos of book covers i took when i worked at the kent state libraries, b/c i've always wanted to do something with them and this was a quick, aesthetically pleasing way to do that! i've got five 'volumes' currently (and i tossed them up on my ko-fi, as well!), but will probably make more b/c i have SO many photos from then
i guess these have been a creative outlet, but i really want to be drawing so it's more like a consolation prize even if i've been enjoying doing them (i also really enjoy the tactile part of folding and cutting them lol)
i need to get around to putting my garden in so it doesn't end up like last year and not go in the ground until fuckin' july. a lot of my seeds didn't sprout, which is frustrating, but it can be like that when you're planting seeds from grocery produce. i wanna try and pick up a few more starts, but we'll see. if nothing else, get something in the ground and get it growing!!
did pick up starts for cherry tomatoes, cucumbers, and jalapeno peppers (b/c mine didn't germinate). gonna try to find something to vine the cukes up on so they don't take over the garden like they did the other year lol
the girls next door are very interested in my gardening and they've been pretty respectful of my front yard, which has been a relief. the family over there now is...white trashy (i say, as i myself am white trash) and their yard is kind of a mess so i'm always hoping it doesn't boil over into mine. but they've been chill otherwise, just often loud and play music loudly during the day. it could be worse, as the universe has proven back with the crazy upstairs neighbor last year
also, we have new upstairs neighbors and they're SO quiet. they're both nerdy and kinky lol. the dude works construction and the gal does security at a local place. we chatted with them a bit when they came over to get the keys and were talking about the front yard area. but it's so nice to barely hear a peep from them. i think only sunday they were playing music a little loud in the late morning and then did laundry most of the day
i made my first payment on that fuckin debt shit. but even at $250/biweekly it feels like it's never going to get paid off. i wish i could give them a big chunk and see if they're write off the rest, but the max i've had so far is $2k and i'm using that as a buffer so i don't have to spend all my extra money from my paychecks over the next couple months. i still need to eat and pay bills and shit
i wish i could find something on the side to do for a couple hours in the evening or something. survey sites don't generate the kind of income i need to balance things out and i don't drive and don't really want to pick up something retail/fast food - it wouldn't last anyhow b/c i have such limited hours
plus, comms have been sparse recently. i need to buckle down and get some progress done on what i have, but there's a lot of things that have been demotivating for me. i don't have anywhere comfortable to sit to work on stuff. my desk setup feels Bad, like something isn't vibing and either my desk or my chair or how i have my monitor set up is Uncomfortable and something needs adjusted there so i can sit at my desk and work for a couple hours here and there
(the cats are also troublesome in this area b/c they want to be on/at my desk when i'm also there which is generally fine but annoying when i'm trying to be productive)
maybe i'll move my desk around or do some rearranging in my corner and see if i can make it better somehow lol
idk i'm at work and restless - don't have a ton to do rn and my shifting project is on hold for the moment b/c i ran out of space and i don't feel like backshifting just yet x_x gonna start going through and clearing out some materials in the 700's that belong to other branches so maybe i can wiggle enough space out
idk HOW there isn't enough space, tbh. even after i condensed and shifted it last year i had a lot of breathing room. but i guess the spacer i used was just a little TOO big so now i gotta go back over my own work x_x
feeling blocked mentally and creatively recently. i've been making a bunch of little zine things, but they don't require a ton of thought. been struggling to put pen to paper (so to speak; pencil to ipad) with art - commissions and personal work, but moreso the latter. i've also been wanting to do some writing, but nothing's actually forming. it's frustrating!!
but i've been sticking my zines up in highland square (neighborhood near my house) and it's been fun to see who finds me on social media just from that lol
i folded the ones above zigzag and when you reach the bottom you flip it over to 'keep scrolling'. i thought it was pretty cute lol. they're, like, 3.25"x17", so a decent size unfurled!
i also made a couple zines featuring photos of book covers i took when i worked at the kent state libraries, b/c i've always wanted to do something with them and this was a quick, aesthetically pleasing way to do that! i've got five 'volumes' currently (and i tossed them up on my ko-fi, as well!), but will probably make more b/c i have SO many photos from then
i guess these have been a creative outlet, but i really want to be drawing so it's more like a consolation prize even if i've been enjoying doing them (i also really enjoy the tactile part of folding and cutting them lol)
i need to get around to putting my garden in so it doesn't end up like last year and not go in the ground until fuckin' july. a lot of my seeds didn't sprout, which is frustrating, but it can be like that when you're planting seeds from grocery produce. i wanna try and pick up a few more starts, but we'll see. if nothing else, get something in the ground and get it growing!!
did pick up starts for cherry tomatoes, cucumbers, and jalapeno peppers (b/c mine didn't germinate). gonna try to find something to vine the cukes up on so they don't take over the garden like they did the other year lol
the girls next door are very interested in my gardening and they've been pretty respectful of my front yard, which has been a relief. the family over there now is...white trashy (i say, as i myself am white trash) and their yard is kind of a mess so i'm always hoping it doesn't boil over into mine. but they've been chill otherwise, just often loud and play music loudly during the day. it could be worse, as the universe has proven back with the crazy upstairs neighbor last year
also, we have new upstairs neighbors and they're SO quiet. they're both nerdy and kinky lol. the dude works construction and the gal does security at a local place. we chatted with them a bit when they came over to get the keys and were talking about the front yard area. but it's so nice to barely hear a peep from them. i think only sunday they were playing music a little loud in the late morning and then did laundry most of the day
i made my first payment on that fuckin debt shit. but even at $250/biweekly it feels like it's never going to get paid off. i wish i could give them a big chunk and see if they're write off the rest, but the max i've had so far is $2k and i'm using that as a buffer so i don't have to spend all my extra money from my paychecks over the next couple months. i still need to eat and pay bills and shit
i wish i could find something on the side to do for a couple hours in the evening or something. survey sites don't generate the kind of income i need to balance things out and i don't drive and don't really want to pick up something retail/fast food - it wouldn't last anyhow b/c i have such limited hours
plus, comms have been sparse recently. i need to buckle down and get some progress done on what i have, but there's a lot of things that have been demotivating for me. i don't have anywhere comfortable to sit to work on stuff. my desk setup feels Bad, like something isn't vibing and either my desk or my chair or how i have my monitor set up is Uncomfortable and something needs adjusted there so i can sit at my desk and work for a couple hours here and there
(the cats are also troublesome in this area b/c they want to be on/at my desk when i'm also there which is generally fine but annoying when i'm trying to be productive)
maybe i'll move my desk around or do some rearranging in my corner and see if i can make it better somehow lol
idk i'm at work and restless - don't have a ton to do rn and my shifting project is on hold for the moment b/c i ran out of space and i don't feel like backshifting just yet x_x gonna start going through and clearing out some materials in the 700's that belong to other branches so maybe i can wiggle enough space out
idk HOW there isn't enough space, tbh. even after i condensed and shifted it last year i had a lot of breathing room. but i guess the spacer i used was just a little TOO big so now i gotta go back over my own work x_x