oh, mama raised me well

( a promise made with twisted fingers behind my back )

i completely forgot about posting this around the first of the month!

in knife_lounge's discord server the other week, the showcase topic/theme was 'before and after! How have your OCs changed over time?' and i was thinking about how my fursona, ally, has changed AND split over the years



ally started out as 'alien' - green haired brown fox. she was pretty short-lived - up until 2002. i was using either faith originally in some satAM rp chats, and the phe as, like, my 'main' charas online

i was into men in black and the x-files and aliens at the time, which is where the green hair came from, i'm pretty sure. i redrew her in 2020!



fursona got a fresh new design in 2002 and renamed 'angel'. bonus big and/or chibi angel wings as part of the design now!



around 2006-2007 i was doing more vampire-based rp stuff on tapestries muck and revived a bit her older incarnation that was based off the self-insert character i played in a vampire the masquerade chronicle (like, this had always been there, i just wasn't utilizing it lol). so there was a lot more of her with 'darker' art next to the pretty cutesy/brightly colored stuff i drew of her (the wavy/curly vs. straight hair was usually the visual difference between the two)




in 2010, i gave her another overhaul b/c possum just felt right to add. i'd also been playing freckles/pepper the previous year and had made her a possum, so...



i think that first sketch was the only time i EVER drew the tattoos i wanted her to have lkhglkhgd - i ended up basically giving the tatts to kailani

in 2018/2019, there were more liminal/horror themes coming out in my art and i started pivoting back to playing with ally/angel/vampire stuff



i leaned back into that pretty heavily and it's been the consistent them of her for a couple years now



what, then, about the left side of that image? who is ancyn? and what does she have to do with angel???

so, i kind of yoinked V:tM angel and shook the dust off of her and decided to kind of re-work her origin story. ultimately, it's pretty much the same, but i wanted to actually re-work her sire (who was originally a jr/hs bf of mine lol) and make him his own creation instead of mostly based off someone else who isn't even someone i think about anymore lol

(now, mind you, there's overlap with ally/angel/ancyn's stories across the board - fursona ally is really just me, but offshoot of fursona ally has the V:tM history mess, and angel got rolled over into a fresh new form with ancyn and a slightly different version of the V:tM history mess lol)



so ancyn got reworked for my D2 hunter slot - her and her partner left the last city early on in the city age to scout north america and report back. this went on for a good while, but eventually they went off grid. something happened to them and she was forced to kill her partner (not final death). she returned to the city to seek out an old friend some time after that. she's a solar main hunter and it's been fun to do a lot of those colors in her pieces!

(i realized i put one of her d&d pics in here, but it's actually kind of both D2 and d&d lol so i'm not going back to fix it)

i also rolled her to play in the d&d campaign chris is running - her story is much more vague, but roughly something happened to her partner and she's going to have to figure out how to fix/remedy it. she's a swiftstride shifter rogue and the party doesn't know her real name or that she IS a shifter at all ICly lol - it's also fun to draw her with the overlay of ears/tails to represent that

oh my love, oh my love
take my word but keep the upper hand
🎶

they say you're the predator
somehow killed the messenger
do it again, do it again
i know, i know, i know
🎶

earlier this week friend chris messaged us asking if we'd want to do D&D sometime soon. we just finished up 'the red canals' halloween game that a member of our other ttrpg group (pathfinder) ran, so we figured why not. most everyone in the group is pretty new to D&D (tho not wholly unfamiliar with roleplay in general), so we'll all be kind of stumbling along together lol

we got together yesterday night to put together character stuff and, god, it feels like it could be simpler, but i did not learn anything about D&D until i was an adult and, therefore, the time for it to imprint into my brain had passed. world of darkness got that privilege

but we cobbled together characters - i'm re-using ancyn (from destiny currently), who's a rehash of angel from my first WoD game lol. i'm playing three different d20 characters (pathfinder has kailani, poe, and desma) already, so my usual first choices were already taken and i DO NOT want to play the same char in two games and get shit confused lol

which means i'm now at the following for d20 chars lol

kailani - lizardfolk - fighter (wrestler dedication) [currently dead]
poe - catfolk - wizard (ghost hunter dedication) [pathfinder agent]
desma - fetchling - witch (mosquito witch patron) [pathfinder agent]
ancyn - swiftstride shifter - rogue (criminal background)

i DO finally get to use my arcana note journal, tho!! and i thankfully found the pdf's to print more sheets if i fuck anything up lol

we also played a bunch of jackbox afterwards and made some pretty excellent designs