oh, mama raised me well

this won't get any easier now
that your heart is beating in my head
and i've tried not to destroy you baby
although we both know i can
🎶

upstairs toilet must have gotten fixed, but the upstairs neighbor also moved out which is eeeh, good and bad. their kids were kinda loud, but they were overall mostly quiet - just music noodled frequently, but they could at least play decently. the downside is that: we're gonna get a new neighbor and it's a gamble on what that might end up being. the majority of individuals have been okay, or at least tolerable, except for that one woman and her children that had to be evicted and then weren't even out of the house when the landlord and the sheriff came down. i wish he wouldn't rent the place out at all, but what can you do

also dreading the inevitable $50/mo rent hike when i need to renew my lease ://// every year i get a meager raise and every year it's eaten up by my rent going up

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been trying to draw more - or at least keep busy a little creatively



working on a ref for ancyn (base is by garoline) b/c i saw this base and it has SUCH ancyn vibes, so that was a big bit of inspiration to play around with it. i'm liking how it's coming out so far, at least. gonna add some more stuff to it, i think, as well, and make it more of a full ref sheet like my ally one is



also working on a commission thing~



also also realized i never posted these here?????? glimmer for mitsene (from her webcomic glimmer), cassiopeia for suzanami, and a kailani for me (her anthro destiny version - just straight opossum lol)

got a fit of inspiration at the end of december - AFTER i'd done my 2024 art summary, NATURALLY (which i also realize i haven't posted here lol - there's probably gonna be a bunch of individual art posts after this)

made two zines, managed to do some personal art, brunch bowling, and not looking forward to the weather changing, but kinda am looking forward to halloween

did something almost every weeken in august - punk rock flea market, porchrokr, pride. plus had some cool weather and a lot of blimp sightings lol

still bummed about not being able to go to anthrocon, but june was nice otherwise!

new month, new grid of pics that's eighty percent my cats!

so we finished up the campaign missions for lightfall last week and i wanted to ramble a bit about it somewhere that isn't........twitter lol




( spoilers within )

clicking goes to my ko-fi shop~

charms that i got made through knifeorchid's discord group order earlier this year! it's very, very fun to see your art as physical items. i also absolutely adore the hook one - i thought it would make a great charm back when i first drew it

made all these cute little merch graphics with canva, since half of my awake time is spent at work and without photoshop or something, and canva's great for this kinda shit and i don't have to really wrack my brain over graphic design lol

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( art dump behind the cut )

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other than that, uh

i picked up a new phone (on payments of course) this month - moto g power 2022. my old one (moto g6) still works OKAY but it was doing shit like not charging, or having to be sat a Very Specific Way to charge, or just turning off whenever it felt like, often in the middle of the night when i had an alarm set. sometimes it would decide it was 'too cold' and shut off at the end of my scooter ride so i couldn't end the ride in the app. it was slow, but i'd adapted, but it was still s l o w

new phone does have some finickiness, which i knew going in, but i wanted as new as i could get in my budget. it feels like it's not as fast as it SHOULD be for a phone that's three years newer than my g6, but since i've been using it normally now it feels decently speedy in comparison. also, more space, a really nice camera (in comparison). it's bigger (taller) which is kind of annoying, but i'll get used to it

i also managed to put my screen protector on with NO BUBBLES OR DEBRIS UNDER IT. the true accomplishment here

work has been..............................something. a lot of something. both of our student workers quit within a week of each other, out part timer transferred to another branch. we GOT a teen librarian from a different branch transferred over (heard rumors of issues with the manager there). had, like, three incidents to do paperwork on with neighborhood kids last month, including one where they threw a whole kid's scooter into our foyer and at the inside automatic doors and then went around pounding on the windows in the front of the branch

i have four days off for christmas, which is nice, i'm hoping to maybe try to accomplish some kind of art but i'll probably just end up playing destiny b/c i can't manage my time anymore lol

tonight, tho, i'm going over a friends' place for a holiday dinner and that should be nice (idk if tony's going with or not, he was invited but is also sketchy with holiday stuff)

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forgot i wanted to add reading stuff too lol...

📖 Little Monsters, Volume 1
interesting premise, nice art. i liked the muted, kind of scratchy vibe this has visually. interested to see where it goes, there's not a TON of plot in the first volume, but you get to know the characters a little bit

📖 The Closet #1
i thought this would be..........more? maybe it will be in later volumes lol. WELL, LIKE, i thought it would be more actual monsters kind of thing (and maybe it will turn into that? manifestation of fears or something) but it's mostly interpersonal relationship drama seen tangentially through the eyes of a child. which is fine, just not what i prefer lol. the main character is just a shitshow of a pathetic human being, in the bad way lol which is great writing, but man is he unlikeable lol

📖 Carole & Tuesday, Vol. 1
this is super cute so far! i haven't watched the anime yet, but i've been aware of it. my only gripe is that sometimes they draw carole's neck really long and it's disconcerting lol

📖 Die, Vol. 1: Fantasy Heartbreaker
i am......kinda? liking this? the art is BEAUTIFUL and there's an interesting story being told here, but it's not sunshine and roses. the plot IS pretty dreary, which is fine, but probably not what someone who reads the premise of 'adults have to return to the d&d fantasy world they played in as teens' would be expecting

i also didn't realize this was by kieron gillen and i REALLY did not like the writing in 'the wicked + the divine' when i first read it years ago (i don't think i finished the first volume??) so maybe i'll give that another shot just to see if it was as bad as i remember in comparison

📖 Home Sick Pilots, Volume 1: Teenage Haunts
the art in this is beautiful, the plot is a little convoluted but this one feels like there's enough plot fed in to keep you wondering that'll probably be elaborated on in later volumes (though the ending of this vol does take a turn i didn't expect lol so it could go from 'girl pilots house like a mech' conceptually to literally)

📖 Chainsaw Man, Vol. 1: Dog And Chainsaw
i kept seeing thinkpieces about how the women in this SUCK(affectionate), and we had the first couple volumes on the shelves at work, so i figured i'd give it a shot. i don't hate it! the devil designs are pretty cool and it honestly doesn't feel AS fanservice-y as i'd expect. i think i've got vol. 3 sitting on my desk atm, so it's got me willing to learn more at least lol

📖 Sports Is Hell
i'd seen this on the shelves at work, but someone requested it for a hold and i started skimming through it at the desk. figured i'd give it a quick read b/c it's pretty short. it's WILD biting satire of politics under the veneer of sports - you can see the juxtaposition of sports riots (good) vs. activism riots (bad) and the ever-constant battle between how to be the Right Kind of Activist or revolutionary

i've got a............tall stack of graphic novels on my desk currently that i need to power through lol

first time i've ever been caught up with in-game content lol so since tony and i have been rambling with rp lore it's been fun to write things in response to in game events lol

there's, like, bigger context for this in terms of things kailani is dealing with in our rp lore lol

also the siken quote is actually one of kailani's pre-rez tattoos (carried over from pacific rim verse) and it's so on the nose i had to keep it for the lulz. she has the full end quote with 'These, our bodies, possessed by light. Tell me we’ll never get used to it.' bit, but i trimmed it here

no spoilers for this week's content!

( kailani, zavala / after the [sever: grief] mission )

destiny has me absolutely feral these last two~ weeks it's been The Hyperfocus™ in my brain

i have been Writing, which is a change, but it's been fun for self indulgent shit lol

excerpts below. i might do these as separate entries later on, if i can make them feel like 'complete' little drabble things lol they're a mess rn

( kailani says hello to crow )

( kailani enlists the drifter to help her look for their mutual friend )

( kailani shows up needing bruises iced after a romp with an alien species - sfw, just mentions of sex )

( kailani and the drifter fuck - nsfw, obv )