oh, mama raised me well

january felt like a week and six months all at the same time

i both forgot to post this (pre-anthrocon crunch lol) AND forgot a day (june 12 iirc). thank goodness for backdating options (i'm posting this on september 1st lol)

final shape thoughts go here lol i'll try to update as we play thru the campaign
likely spoilers within!!
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i've been petsitting for chris+sam this last week (they're in florida with andrew!) and it's been pretty nice. i am very grateful for the weather being quite decent overall so i can scooty across town (they live in goodyear) and take nice pictures lol



ferret has been VERY photogenic this time around

we did have some storms, and a really nasty storm that went nearby us, which made for some great skies at sunset, as well



i've been taking a lot of photos along the bike trail of grafitti, as well, since a lot has changed since i went this route a year or so ago when i petsat last time lol

i am in LOVE with that glitchy looking DVD one tbh

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other than that, it's been a pretty lowkey week. worked. played some destiny (ran 'the whisper' and then pulled tony in at the end to beat the boss and made it with under one minute to spare x_x also watching a lot of buzzfeed unsolved supernatural lol

went to my appointment about my thyroid last week, too, and nothing new on that front. i have to schedule an ultrasound and got a bunch of bloodwork done (everything looks good aside from some slightly low iron stuff, but i also was very smart and hadn't eaten or anything beforehand lol)

i am looking forward to not having two terrorist cats wake me up at 5:30am for their breakfast lol just one terrorist cat who aims for 7-8am instead and i can sleep through his shenanigans for the most part

i feel like i've just dissociated through the last two months, what the fuck

we've had two false springs so far, which were pretty nice all things considered. half of this time of year that's a struggle for me is i KNOW nice weather is around the corner and i KNOW winter is not fully over. but every time the temps rise and the sun comes out and then winter comes back and kicks me on my ass, i'm just uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh about it

tired of layers tired of the house being closed up tired of not being able to just go and fuck around w/o worrying about the cold/weather/whatever

still trying to pay down this debt thing. i think i have $1700 left? so fucking much, it feels like, but so fucking close to being done with it. but motivation for commissions has been at an all-time low and i also haven't been picking up any cheaper/quicker (booties, for example), either. and i have a couple big pieces i need to finish up but, god, i do not have the energy/motivation/creative spark for any of them

the furry zine i'm organizing has been going well, however (i still need to figure out what i want to add to it myself, but tony submitted a short story). it's about at the point where the pages are gonna be maxed out, which is pretty cool! excited to be able to print them and share them with people



destiny has been kind of a slog/boring. i wasn't real into this last season (wish) outside of the story stuff, but at least guardian games gave me something to do for a hot minute. i guess i could go back and see what i need to maybe get the titles for the last couple seasons this expansion, but also hhhhhhhhhh at the same time

work hasn't been anything spectacular. we got a new part time guy, we finished our consulting thing, we're thinking ahead about summer reading and plans for that. i've been bitching about our 150th anniversary passport booklets and how marketing dropped the ball on actually creating cute stamps for the passports and, instead, sent all the branches stamps with our branch name in all caps sans serif font


deeply infuriating

i got mad and mocked up some sticker options, even tho nothing will come of it. helps get my rage about it out lol



D&D has been going well - we've been meeting pretty regularly (every other week, at least). we almost had a TPK session before last, but WE SURVIVED ｡･:*˚:✧｡

*** with the help of boozy potions our dm made for the party - luck (rumplemintz+blackberry) and health (rumplemintz+watermelon). we had to con him into letting us use the health potions to stabilize our party members (by physically pouring it into their mouth at the table lol) b/c FOUR of us went down and had to make death saving throws and they were NOT GOOD death saving throws, either

but WE SURVIVED ｡･:*˚:✧｡



i chucked a bunch of seeds in pots earlier in the month and i've got sprouts already, so trying to look forward to that! trying to commit to getting a jump on the garden so i'm not putting it in the ground in fuckin june or july or some stupid shit

started a multiplayer save on stardew valley with tony, since 1.6 launched and there's a bunch of new stuff. we ended up wearing the exact same outfit with no prior planning



sam and i were gonna go to see the crane wives at beachland ballroom next month, but when the tickets went up in december we didn't rush to grab them b/c we thought, well, who ELSE locally even knows them? we should be able to easily grab some in the next month or two

and then it turns out they sold out WITHIN THREE DAYS (good for them tbh)

but a little bummed about it! i keep trying to find secondhand tickets and no one is releasing their grip on theirs, unfortunately

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i leave you, dear reader, with this

the new year continues to punch me squarely in the face

october was mostly garbage all around (lots of little things piling up and one deeply inconvenient issue still pending), but halloween weekend was nice, at least

did something almost every weeken in august - punk rock flea market, porchrokr, pride. plus had some cool weather and a lot of blimp sightings lol

july wasn't super eventful, but we did have a handful of nice storms!

i finally got my warlock pants!!!! they finally fuckin' dropped from the vex incursions so i can stop having to have my warlock on all the time lol. now i just gotta wait for the ornament to come back around for bright dust b/c i don't want to spent 600 silver on it :P

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anyhow, books and stuff time lol. i'm at work and we're pretty dead (somewhat normal for a saturday - the weather is kinda rainy, so no one really wants to be out in it)

🕮 Something is Killing the Children, Vol. 6
🕮 Lore Olympus: Volume Four
🕮 Part of Your World: A Twisted Tale Graphic Novel
🕮 The Love Report
🕮 Slash Them All

this last weekend was pretty nice/relaxing - i discovered librarything and have spend the last week or so cataloging everything i can find in the house which has multiple benefits: we're bad at remembering what books we have AND if i pack stuff into a box/tote to store somewhere, i can tag it appropriately so we can find it easily later

can ALSO catalog movies and music AND, while it's not a common thing to catalog on the site, video games! which, for the same above reasons, is super useful for us

i still some stuff to go through and add, including stragglers lingering randomly around the house, but i've got the main bookshelves added at least

also started doing some bigtime decluttering of the bedroom (cataloging stuff is part of that lol) b/c it was feeling claustrophobic and messy. things just stack up easily and i'm prone to just let it do so until the invisible, unknown breaking point is hit and i HAVE TO CLEAN.

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we had a pretty nice thunderstorm thursday night - TONS of rain and a nice bit of lightning and thunder. there was some sketchy purple bits around us on the radar, but we didn't get hit with anything heavier than heavy rain. apparently there was a tornado touchdown in massillon, but i don't think it was anything significant.

also had a little bit of rumbly last night before bed, as well

garden is coming along nice. i feel like i was def eating tomatoes and peppers out of it by this time last year, but given i didn't really rehab the soil on the one side as much as it needed, i should be glad it's growing anything at all. so the tomats and pepps are coming in slowly, but our strawberries (container) have been producing nicely, as well as my sugar snap peas (when i can beat the birds to them). the cukes are also flourishing! there's quite a few hidden lemon cucumbers i spotted yesterday and a couple of the regular ones starting to look like actual veg

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twitter is still impoloding. i'm still scoping out places where i might want to hang out as a twitter 'replacement'

i've got complaints about mastodon - i don't think it's user friendly in terms of signing up. in addition, one of he bigger furry instances just recently decided to shut down, so all those users have to move and find somewhere new to occupy. which is just...............bad for a social media platform. (tho i know masto isn't intended to be, like, an average socmed platform, but people are going to treat it like that b/c they don't understand what federated/unfederated/decentralized/whatever actually means or is for). i was on snouts back in the day (i signed up for masto pretty early on to play around with it) and i didn't even know it imploded when it did. but i'd have been Pretty Annoyed if i'd had a lot of posts/followers/whatever on there and it got nuked

but that's one of those masto things - you're at the whims of the admins of the instance you choose. and if you choose the 'default' mastodon.social instance, other instance owners may restrict that instance from theirs (meaning it's harder to view someone's posts/profile - it's, like, an extra three steps to go and view it on their own instance) and it's also, like, a three step process to follow someone not on your instance, including copypasting their @ info into the search on your instance and then following from there. it's not great

i'm waiting to see if i can acquire a bluesky invite, just to claim my name and play around with it. but i've been on the waitlist for mooooonths x_x

and, like, i don't really want a furry-specific socmed site b/c i LIKE being able to stumble across all different kinds of art and stuff - i don't want to JUST be confined to furry stuff. my twitter feed is a pretty varied and i LIKE it like that. that's why i like tumblr, as well. it can just be stream of thought/personal/art/furry/fandom/horror/games/whatever. and, sure, i can do that on a furry-centric platform, too, but i'm not going to be exposed to/find as much cool stuff i like in that kind of space

so idk, i'm kind of bouncing around everywhere lol

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ran 'prophecy' over the weekend with growl and tony!! it was very fun - i like the dungeons where there's lots of space and stuff to explore and the mechanics were enjoyable to do (not like the nightmare that is the second encounter of 'ghosts of the deep')







leaving these full size b/c i like them lol

other than that i've been grinding for the solstice title ('flamekeeper') - i didn't get it last year so i gotta redo everything this year. all i've got left now is.......................killing guardians. which means running either crucible or gambit. i'm hoping for a mayhem week so i can just force myself into crucible b/c killing guardians in gambit is more strategery lol

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a little wip, as a treat

impromptu game night last night - first time i think we've all gotten together since the holiday party lol

chris and sam got me a bobcat skull and a little chunk of tanned fur (i don't know what animal, i only got a chance to look at it before we left the house lol) from their vacation. they wanted to find me a possum skull, but there's basically none out in the prairie!! so the places they checked out had none lol

we played 'side effects' and 'quelf' (lol queef). side effects was fun b/c you got to inflict things on your opponents. it ended with sam and basil going back and forth inflicting each other for, like, five minutes before one of them finally won out. quelf was funny as shit - at one point chris could not use his arms at all, whenever basil talked he had to have his thumbs in his mouth, we had to call the current leader on the board 'the great and almighty lord of quelf' (this naturally got shortened to 'lord queef'). it was absolute chaos, a good time

had a little bit to drink (aperol blegh, 'mayflower' mixed thing yum, warm-ass rumplemintz uggdgfhsdgfksjdfskd (it's better cold/mixed lol)) and ended up home early b/c other folks had stuff to do in the morning/rest of the evening

this morning, i am awake earlier than i'd like, but i did get mcd's breakfast (and an icey coffee) for tony and i, so the trade off is alright lol. pathfinder this afternoon, i think i'm gonna try to get some art done during it. i'm also keeping an eye on a discord bot to give me notifs of the vex incursions in destiny b/c they drop legend lost sector exotics SO I DON'T HAVE TO FUCKING RUN LEGEND LOST SECTORS ANYMORE B/C I FUCKING HATE THEM

we ran a bunch (incursions) the other evening and i got some cool exotics i don't have so far (boots of the assembler, cadmus ridge lancecap, loreley splendor helm), but not the one i WANT want (secant filaments). but at least waiting out incursions to drop is easier/nicer than getting repeatedly slaughtered and straight up Not Having A Good Time™ in legend lost sectors x_x

still bummed about not being able to go to anthrocon, but june was nice otherwise!

look at the way we gotta hide what we're doin'
'cause what would they say
if they ever knew?
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may went by way too fuckin' fast

we had about a week and a half of 80F+ weather and then it was back to typical spring flip-flopping

so we finished up the campaign missions for lightfall last week and i wanted to ramble a bit about it somewhere that isn't........twitter lol




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february's pics!
links go to my insta, but i also crosspost these to twitter and tumblr

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i got hyperfixated on doing a mini 8pg zine stuff last night after zipcon and they're pretty fun to do!! no real plans going in, just pulling images from places and lyrics/poetry/words from places, and rooting around in my textures folder and doing whatever with it

gonna try printing it tomorrow at work, i'm sure most of the text is too small for it to be viable on an 8.5x11, but maybe it'll look nice on 11x17 - tho that might be bigger than i actually want it lol

okay so otherwise, what's been going on this last month?

i'm trying to weasel my way onto anthrocon staff (fingers crossed!) b/c, honestly, i DO love staffing cons and helping out, but it also makes ATTENDING easier for me and will save me a little money, which is always appreciated. i've been wanting to staff at ac for awhile now and just haven't actually put my feelers out there to see about making it reality b/c [gestures broadly] and then pandemic and everything

might be also doing some game/ttrpg stuff at matsuricon?? maybe???? that one's kinda up in the air atm

DID reach out to andy, who runs oddmall, about furry stuff and he's on board. so i gotta find time to get up with him and have a chat about what i'd like to see happen. can't do it at the event downtown due to how the knight center rents the space out (by room), but CAN do it at the two events they have in richfield (hotel, rents the whole space out together for him). and then it's a matter of lighting a fire under local folks to get them wanting to help out/be involved/present panels/whatever. i WANT it to be a COMMUNITY thing, not a 'oh ally organizes that' and everything be on me. aiming for sort of something between a meetup and, like, a mini con??? so, yeah, like folks running panels about furry stuff and maybe a section for furry vendors/artists/whatever and, like, maybe a fursuit photo area or something?? vague ideas currently, nothing set in stone, but fingers crossed for something cool to come of this!

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sketch (and whatever) dump!!


playing around with destiny!poe. first one is a variant on the cryptarch robes, b/c that was her profession before becoming a guardian (and she only JUST became a guardian lol - so she's got, like, people IN the tower and IN the city who, like, she was buddies/acquaintances/friends/family with only a few months to a year ago and now she's trying to piece together journals and things she left behind to play catchup with the whole guardian blank slate).

second is some kind of casual wear. third is a drawover of her in game character selection screen


oekaki!! done on rainbowmancer/freakphone's drawing room. this is all the bigger it is lol. i think 300x300


still trying to get down ancyn's design. like, it's half-formed in my head currently. but stuff bounces around, which is suppose works anyhow b/c she's been around a couple hundred years, so you'd def change your appearance now and then. short hair looks cute, long hair looks cute, etc., etc.

i rambled a bit about her on twit, so i'll paste that shit here, too

she's been.....interesting to roll around across my brainmeats b/c her origin is my old self-insert vtm char (angel) who ate her sire during her embrace so, like, There's That. and angel's well past all that shit. but i put ancyn like, IN that shit

something Very Bad got into her partner and she had to put him down (for the time being), so she's returning to the last city after a couple hundred years (left when the tower was being built) carrying this simultaneous grief and relief and Still Processing what happened

so she spends a lot of her time with distractions to keep her mind off of whatever happened (and prolonging the Processing part) - running gambit, playing cards, gambling, helping an old friend with eliksni quarter stuff, etc., etc)

it's also been interesting re-creating her partner b/c BACK IN THE DAYYYY when i was a god awful high schooler, angel's vampire bf/sire was based on a guy i dated briefly and had Complicated Teenage Feelings about for a very long time

and i'm, like, weirdly all about not retconning a lot of dumb shit i've done for/to my characters lol, but i'm 20yrs on now. so for ancyn i kept his initials and dark hair, but i've been making something new of him

(mostly this version is getting based on rivers/lakes and selkie vibes b/c i fuckin love selkies)

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other stuff has been about the same. money sucks. work is fine. every day is closer to nice weather and green trees.

i sent some of my inktober zines out for a zine exchange for a server i'm in and i realized i'm almost completely out of them now! think i'll use this as an excuse to finish up the in progress 2019 one, as well, and get some more copies printed. maybe play around with doing some hand binding or something for them for funsies

and, finally, books i read this last month!

CREMA
Reckless #5: Follow Me Down
House of Slaughter, Vol. 2
Who Owns the Clouds?